In late January Jonathan and I decided to try for a second child.
Our original plan was to wait until little man was 4. There were many reasons for this decision including not having enough room in our tiny home for another child, little man was a difficult newborn, he has yet to sleep through the night, and probably the biggest reason is his NICU stay. The thought of going through that again is scary to say the least.
What changed our plans was my annual trip to my OB/GYN. My doctor was reassuring and supportive and he left Jonathan and I with such a feeling of peace.
In February we started actively trying.
April rolled around and I had yet to have a period so I made an another appointment with my OB/GYN to get on Metformin. It was this drug that allowed me to conceive our son.
On April 6th I started taking 850mg of Met everyday. I upped the dose to 850mg pills 2x a day.
So far no period and I am starting to get really worried.
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May 6th, 2010
Negative OPK's, negative pregnancy tests, no sign of a period.
I am starting to close myself down and think that only one would be for the best. I love my son, he is my world and I must admit that I am scared of what a new baby will do to the routine and life that we have built for ourselves.
When February 2011 comes we are done. The clock is ticking the pressure is on. Please let us be blessed one last time.
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May 17th, 2010
Between taking ovulation predictor kit tests and keeping track of my BBT's, it appears that I really did ovulate. FINALLY!
The wait to test begins.
We had perfect timing but since there is only a 20% chance of getting pregnant each cycle I am trying not to get my hopes up. I am failing. 10 more days and I test.
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May 21st, 2010
8 days past ovulation and I have hope.
That's the bad thing about knowing when you ovulated and having perfect timing is that damned hope. While it might not sound like a bad thing to most people, I am an eternal pessimist, hope for me just means a chance for greater disappointment.
Yet, here is it 8 days past ovulation and I have hope.
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May 25th, 2010
I started my period. Hope is dead.
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June 28th, 2010
This cycle went as well as can be expected. I drank my green tea every afternoon from CD 8 until ovulation. Instead of drinking POM juice I found some really yummy Eddy's POM popsicles - they are delicious! I got a positive OPK and we had good timing. I am 10 days past ovulation and I have a doctors appointment on the 30th.
Hopefully a positive pregnancy test is in our future.
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July 3rd, 2010
On June 28th I took a pregnancy test and on it showed up the faintest positive you could ever have imagined. It looked almost like an evaporation line, you had to squint, turn it and have the perfect lighting to tell it was there. It was so faint that my camera couldn't even pick it up. Needless to say I was excited but not thoroughly convinced (last month I had evaporation lines too).
On June 30th I went to see my OB. The appointment was one I had made 3 months previously. We were suppose to talk about my Metformin and the next steps we could take on my journey to conceive - instead he had me pee in a cup.
When he walked in he told me that he might have good news for me. He sent me down to the lab to get my blood drawn. When the results came back the nurse called me with the news that I was pregnant and my Beta's were 44. I, of course, was elated.
I went back on Friday, June 2nd for another Beta test. This time the numbers came back at 138!
Today I took another pee test. In seconds it turned dark. It's much darker then any of the ones I took with my son.
This doesn't feel real! It took so long with Jake and only two medicated (6 total) with this one. I am so happy.
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